This is no ordinary bag of apricots.
It’s a legacy, a reminder of those who are no longer here,
or leaving soon.
Apricots are the perfect fruit. In my mind, Eve hands Adam
an apricot. She has a whole fig leaf apron full of them. And raspberries jammed
in a pocket. (But that’s another story. And no, I’m not sure where Eve would have a pocket.)
Hey, those look like apricots! |
I didn’t like apricots until I was about 11 or 12 years old.
My oldest sister Judy, married with her own family, came to our house to pick apricots
off of our tree during one of the rare years it produced. She taught me how
their texture is firmer than peaches, less messy, and more subtle in flavor.
And that flavor, when snatched from a tree on a hot July afternoon, was
fantastic. She was right—I discovered I loved apricots as I picked them with
her. Suddenly, she stopped.
“How many have you eaten?”
“About 5 or 6,” I told her.
“Well, stop,” she said as she popped another in her mouth.
Hypocrite, I
thought. “Why?”
“Because these will make you the best of friends with the
toilet around this time tomorrow.” She swallowed down another one.
“How many have you had?”
“Probably 20,” she said nonchalantly. “I’ve already cleared
my calendar for tomorrow afternoon. I’ll hate myself then, but for now?
Heavenly!”
She later confessed that on the drive home, she had to put
the bucket of apricots in the back of her van, out of her reach. The next day she lived in
the bathroom while her husband laughed at her.
“But it was worth it!” Judy insisted when I next saw her. “Fresh and free apricots come only a few weeks of the year, and some years, not at all. Eat them
while you can!”
Each year my mother and I watched our apricot tree, cheering
at the popcorn-like blossoms and hoping for a good crop. Then, two years out of
three, a frost killed the blossoms.
But the mild springs? Well, one year we had a huge crop, and
came home one day to see little orange bits all over the road in front of our
house. Perplexed, we looked up on the hill where our apricot tree stood and saw
that half of it was lying on the ground, the weight of so much fruit breaking
it. Little apricots had rolled down the hill and became a mushy mess all over
the road. Neighbors came to help clean up the mess, my mother made jam for two
straight days—at the end, cursed the little things for being so darned
plentiful that year—and Judy and I ate far too many again.
Judy and my mom in 2007 (clearly wishing they were eating apricots instead). |
That was a long time ago. I moved away to the east coast,
saw apricots for sale occasionally at the grocery stores for exorbitant prices,
and remembered Utah apricots. Then we moved back to Utah in 2007 and occasionally got
an apricot or two, and loved them.
Yesterday, a neighbor wrote on facebook how sick she was of
making apricot jam, and I thought about my mom. She’s now 85 and fading slowly
away. In hospice care, she doesn’t open her eyes, she doesn’t speak, and now
she no longer eats. She won’t taste apricots or make jam this year.
My mom, at the end of May this year, when she was still sitting up and holding my littlest guy, just for a moment. |
We don’t have that tree anymore, either. We sold the house,
and the tree, last summer. If the haggard old tree is still there, I don’t
know. I haven’t driven past the home since we sold it.
And I don’t have Judy, either. She won her first round with
cancer, but it came back more angry for a second bout, and nearly three years
ago, Judy passed away.
Me and my oldest sister Judy, in 2007. (No apricots in sight.) |
But there are still apricots, brought to me by a dear friend, in a bag.
Yesterday, I taught my 4-year-old how to love them. After
her fifth one I said, “We shouldn’t have any more. Too many will make you need
to go to the bathroom a lot tomorrow.”
She nodded in agreement, but about ten minutes later came to
me with another apricot for me to open and pit. “Just one more,” she promised. “The
last one.”
I smiled and took one more as well.
Then ate about twenty-five more.
Today I’ve spent a lot of time in the bathroom.
And I swear I’ve heard Judy laughing at me and saying, But they’re worth it, aren’t they?
Lovely post!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great story. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteLove it! I miss Aunt Judy too.
ReplyDeleteI loved this story. I love apricots as well. I've never made apricot jam before though, I always eat them too fast.
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